After spending a wonderful 4 week vacation with my daughters in the USA; I was feeling a new energy and zest for life. Even now my mind is certainly free and I have a sense of freedom from any control or captivity. However; before I could work out a long term plan of living, destiny intervened and took all my decisions for me.
Having set my mind free, this phase of being in the hospital though caring for the same person who feels no remorse ever for any wrong doings, and inspite of being in similar circumstances as before, it has still not been as painful as before. Nothing has changed on the surface, but there is a definite calmness in my heart. It hurts many times very deep down, but only momentarily. Freedom from within myself embalms my wounds. The cross road of my life does make me think...is this what I want; am I doing right; is this who I want to be. These are all the questions I want answers to, but have none right now.
I am relaxed in my heart that once this phase is over, I will probably have my life back. My life that I want to live - may be not a very eventful one, but more peaceful one, where I have all the time to be myself.
My vacation with my daughters in the US was just beautiful. I will always cherish all the times we spent together. Here are some pictures from the vacation.